Sometimes Falling Is Just A Test

Over the past month, I feel like a large hand stuck out its index finger and pushed me down. Refusing to stay fall, I continually feel the weight getting heavier and heavier. Now there is a little difference; the weight seems to hit the triple digits, yet because of previously tearing down muscle, new and stronger muscle was constructed mentally and physically. I have a diary (yes a DIARY) that I write in every day (and if I miss a day which has happened, I just cover it in the next days entry).

If you want to look at some photos from my Project365 you can visit my website here. Maybe I should compose a post for all of the days up to now, and then blog everyday from then on.

What do you all think?

Time for me to bare you a good night world. I have an extremely long day tomorrow with just two more tasks to complete on my to-do list right now.

Goodnight world!

Back to The Routine!

How am I holding up the first week  back from school? I am actually holding my own fairly well for the amount of work on my plate. I haven't been able to read a book as of yet, however, I plan on beginning some reading tomorrow night (why tomorrow, because my school doesn't have class on Fridays). My Project 365 is going pretty well (visit my first 5 days here) and my first photo being blogged with other Project 365 community members (visit here).

View the full story behind this photo on the first link provided above.

While completing some homework tonight, I listen to Pandora radio and heard this band called "Within Temptation." If you have not listened to them, finish reading this post and please listen to "What Have You Done Now" and "The Howling" you will not regret it.

I have a feeling that if I can grip of my work and free time, I will become a completely happy person! Well time to finish watching Top Chef, I may take a nap and continue some work to get ahead.

For The Purpose of Understanding

I remember purchasing this book in my school bookstore Freshman year, yet I never usedi t. back in October (2010), I thought to use it as a book for my quotes. After only writing two quotes (I have written more, just not in the book), I ripped out that page. January 1st, 2011 it all clicked to me like an epiphany. I found my favorite pen, and (check this unplanned magic) at 11:11pm [MST] on 1/1/2011, I began writing the first entry into my diary.

Maybe it was fate, that I was let go from a horrible restaurant (most likely going to close seeing that they couldn't even pay their employees and food purveyors on time.) I didn't go back home for the Winter break like most of my peers. I stayed in Denver, seeking conformity in my mind and being away from the world. Finding myself was my goal, and I believe I have achieved it.

Well, I must get back to enjoying my coffee, listening to the Avenged Sevenfold radio station on Pandora, and complete some homework before school starts tomorrow. If this is what 2011 is all about, then who am I to get in the way? Let me find a cloud to float on and do things for the purpose of understanding!

Re-Dedicating Myself

*If you haven't, please read my previous post (Finding Myself) and then read this, it will make more sense.*

*(Listen to the above video, its what I'm listening to and you will get the feeling of this post way more.) Avenged Sevenfold - Almost Easy

To do a self-assessment is easy.... I took an amiss turn in 2010. Not too far away, however, the direction wasn't improving me as a person. I dedicated myself to working, missing the focus of just being happy and enjoying life. Because of that, it showed through my work. My photography seemed forced (which resulted me in discontinuing my Project 365 on my Flickr page), my writing quantity was little, and I was dubious of where did Kenon go? What choices made me this way?

Kristen, one of my closest friends told me the greatest advice ever:

"As soon as you can leave work at work and have a home life outside of food you will find happiness.... you have to have a line between the two."

Going to the Denver Zoo of Lights (I wrote a poem about it, I don't know the format I want to [if] posting my poetry on here yet) everything changed. At that very moment, I found myself again, my photos became more clear, and my writing quantity/quality skyrocketed. Being able to end 2010 on a good note from change is great, entering 2011 continuing down that path feels so much better!

Depicting through music, as well as obliging to the Kristen's advice, I knew a time for change needed to happen, and quickly. 

I'm ready to re-dedicated myself to my family and my friends, back to the way I should be.

Ate some good Pho with flank (hoisin sauce and sirracha on the side) at Pho Yo this morning!
 

Hope you all had a Merry Christmas!